Author Emily Dietle
My focus is on state-church separation & social issues. I'm an avid reader, and feel that one of our most valuable tools is the free movement of information and ideas. | @emilyhasbooks
So, you find yourself questioning the existence of your god. No matter your religion, that’s pretty frightening. All these years, raised to believe that an all-knowing, all-loving being was out there, somewhere, and that he had a plan for you. That your parents and community knew the ‘Truth.’ Most importantly, you’ve been instructed that when you die -if you followed all the rules, or asked for forgiveness- you’d join your loved ones for eternity in a paradise of sorts.
Maybe this started out with some unanswered questions, or some deep seated concerns; now you’ve read ‘too much,’ talked to too many people, and are finding yourself spinning in doubt. Nothing matches up. The once holy texts are holding less sway over you, prayer appears pointless, and worship is an empty act. There are still some things that stick. Perhaps seeing ‘god’ written in lower case feels wrong, and singing hymns still gives you that warm fuzzy feeling. It’s likely that the fear of eternal damnation, and the idea that you really want to see your deceased loved ones lingers, but the bulk of your belief doesn’t feel real now.
Let me tell you, this is all normal. It’s a transition, and one well-worth experiencing. Shedding god-belief and superstition isn’t easy, and your individual struggle will be both unique and universal in many ways. It’s important to know that there are millions out there that have either already left their religion, or are currently on the journey out, like yourself.
Keep asking questions. Keep reading, exploring, and digging into the root of your concerns. This isn’t easy, but when you’re coming through towards the end of your transition, and you’re able to see the world without the lens of religion, you’ll be in awe of the majesty that is our existence.
Outside of books and forums, the main resource you’re going to need is people; compassionate, understanding people that are or have gone through the same thing that you are. Recovering From Religion can guide you to a local group for support, and if you are a member of clergy, checkout The Clergy Project.
What resources did you find invaluable during your journey out of belief? I welcome you to share them in the comments section for others.